So got to Dublin after pulling an all nighter to finish a paper, I had 2 hours of sleep. I packed my room and my bag and got to Dublin at like 12pm on fri. We went out that day for awhile saw a bunch of stuff. The next day I woke up and we went to; St. Stephen's Green, merrion park, st. Patricks, Christ Church. The choir at Christ church rocked.
Last night we cooked a meal the 5 of us, and it cost us 2.50 per person to cook in the kitchen, bunch of pasta and sauce and stuff. OHHHH fantasico!
Today we went to national gallery, Guiness brew house.
Not much else tomorrow I get a day by myself, to sleep in.
Not much to write now, so i'll talk to you later.
-mike
Monday, December 18, 2006
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
The journey
Wow, how amazing is life?
I can't help but miss everything back home, it isn't that I am homesick, I just miss the things I know. I realize I have changed, in huge and major ways. I know there are things in me that still need to be rooted out, and things that need to be matured. There is a lot of life baggage that I have that I find really hard to let go of. I can't imagine it will be any easier when I am older, so I want to do as much maturing and changing now, even if I think it hurts a bit. I see the future, I am not saying I know what it is, but I can see something on the horizon, and it seems so far away, I don't want to let go of what is right behind me. But if I am to get to that place, then I must let go. It isn't about turning your back on things, it isn't about forgetting or even healing, all those things will happen with God and time. It is about letting go. Thats it. I don't know how to let go.
I dunno if anyone can relate. I feel like a little kid complaining. But there are somethings I just don't want to get over, I don't want to put to rest. I just want it to go away. Nothing is ruining my trip here, nothing could. But as I am learning, from the ages of like 15- (i hear) till 27, is the toughest time. I gotta say the past three years of my life have been crazy, ups and downs, to be honest way more ups than downs, but the downs are just so emotional, so life changing and real, long lasting and life or death.
I have realized so much about myself here, so much! I've realized it's not a bad thing to get a compliment, weird huh? I don't really get them much, so the people here who have told me about what they see in me, has blown me away. I am surprised so much, the strength of God is seen by people, all we've got to do is live it. I've also once again seen that my writings can have an impact on people. Not many in recent years have noticed my writings, a few have said "Oh thats nice", or "Wow, that's deep." But a few here have come to embrace it and urge me to do more, urge me to grow in it, and to keep writing, not because it is deep, but because it has spoken to them. One said "You have so much to say and you say it so well." I was so blown away. I couldn't look her in the eye when she said that to me.
I dunno what to say, I have a lot hitting me right now,God, relationship, School, Travel, none of these things are bad, but all seem so heavy, so i walk with weight, but Jesus has told us that He wishes to be our rock, the one who carries the heaviness with us. Will I let him? I try some days, I don't others. Today I didn't let him, I just tried to carry it, I did it, but it was horrible. I hurt, I cried, I prayed and I was stubborn. Tomorrow? I don't know what I will do tomorrow. I can only wake up and give it a try. Jesus said, "I come to give life, and life more abundantly." I want to live! I want to hop and skip every step, I want on my pogo stick and I want to smile and laugh all the way home. So I will, I am an alien to this place. My strength is not my own. So there is my BLOG for the day, time to finish editing my paper, it is 132am haha, life of a college student! WOOOOOOO.
I love all of you, e-mail me or comment on my blog look at my pictures do all sorts of things for me today! haha, laugh... look in the mirror and flex, even if you have no muscles, it always makes me laugh when i do that haha! ohh sad... haha! Do a little dance even if you don't feel like it, it really will liven up your heart, and smile, force you lips to smile and move your eyebrows around to fit the smile and do weird fish faces. That is the best! Any way, so much, so little, the cat and the fiddle. Bet you didn't see that coming!
-Mike
I can't help but miss everything back home, it isn't that I am homesick, I just miss the things I know. I realize I have changed, in huge and major ways. I know there are things in me that still need to be rooted out, and things that need to be matured. There is a lot of life baggage that I have that I find really hard to let go of. I can't imagine it will be any easier when I am older, so I want to do as much maturing and changing now, even if I think it hurts a bit. I see the future, I am not saying I know what it is, but I can see something on the horizon, and it seems so far away, I don't want to let go of what is right behind me. But if I am to get to that place, then I must let go. It isn't about turning your back on things, it isn't about forgetting or even healing, all those things will happen with God and time. It is about letting go. Thats it. I don't know how to let go.
I dunno if anyone can relate. I feel like a little kid complaining. But there are somethings I just don't want to get over, I don't want to put to rest. I just want it to go away. Nothing is ruining my trip here, nothing could. But as I am learning, from the ages of like 15- (i hear) till 27, is the toughest time. I gotta say the past three years of my life have been crazy, ups and downs, to be honest way more ups than downs, but the downs are just so emotional, so life changing and real, long lasting and life or death.
I have realized so much about myself here, so much! I've realized it's not a bad thing to get a compliment, weird huh? I don't really get them much, so the people here who have told me about what they see in me, has blown me away. I am surprised so much, the strength of God is seen by people, all we've got to do is live it. I've also once again seen that my writings can have an impact on people. Not many in recent years have noticed my writings, a few have said "Oh thats nice", or "Wow, that's deep." But a few here have come to embrace it and urge me to do more, urge me to grow in it, and to keep writing, not because it is deep, but because it has spoken to them. One said "You have so much to say and you say it so well." I was so blown away. I couldn't look her in the eye when she said that to me.
I dunno what to say, I have a lot hitting me right now,God, relationship, School, Travel, none of these things are bad, but all seem so heavy, so i walk with weight, but Jesus has told us that He wishes to be our rock, the one who carries the heaviness with us. Will I let him? I try some days, I don't others. Today I didn't let him, I just tried to carry it, I did it, but it was horrible. I hurt, I cried, I prayed and I was stubborn. Tomorrow? I don't know what I will do tomorrow. I can only wake up and give it a try. Jesus said, "I come to give life, and life more abundantly." I want to live! I want to hop and skip every step, I want on my pogo stick and I want to smile and laugh all the way home. So I will, I am an alien to this place. My strength is not my own. So there is my BLOG for the day, time to finish editing my paper, it is 132am haha, life of a college student! WOOOOOOO.
I love all of you, e-mail me or comment on my blog look at my pictures do all sorts of things for me today! haha, laugh... look in the mirror and flex, even if you have no muscles, it always makes me laugh when i do that haha! ohh sad... haha! Do a little dance even if you don't feel like it, it really will liven up your heart, and smile, force you lips to smile and move your eyebrows around to fit the smile and do weird fish faces. That is the best! Any way, so much, so little, the cat and the fiddle. Bet you didn't see that coming!
-Mike
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